It was a normal evening after college when me and my friend were sitting in a coffee shop talking about everything from how degraded Bollywood is to what is the meaning of life.
Suddenly, I exclaimed, “Yaar! Last month I had over 1000 views on my blog! These days I’m hardly getting 5. It’s so depressing…”
To that, she asked me a question that resulted in this blog post.
“Do you blog to get more views on your stats or because you just want to write?”
I couldn’t answer that question then. After 3 days, I am still forming an answer. And so I’m just going to let my thoughts flow…
Yes, I began blogging not because I wanted people to read what I write (in fact, I was very shy when my brother broadcast my first post to every person he knew), but because I wanted to just write. It was a part of me that I had never explored and I started it on a whim.
But I think somewhere between the allure of the stats page on WordPress and the feeling I got when people started following, liking and commenting on my posts, I started focusing more on how many people are reading. The success of a post was not determined by how well I thought I had written it, but how many people had viewed it and liked it.
So posts like Thinking and The truth about writer’s block, which I had been very happy with when I wrote them, became mediocre when I saw there weren’t that many views. And posts like Why I shouldn’t watch Game of Thrones or The dark side of summer internships, which were not so much an article as a list, I considered successes because they got over 40 views.
Having more readers is a great thing. It really feels good that people are reading and liking what I write. But I have now realized that the success of my posts or my blog as a whole, is not determined by this. I still want more views (duh!) and I will still keep promoting it everywhere, but now, I won’t feel “depressed” by my posts or my blog just because the views dipped.
I love writing. And I’ll keep writing. That’s why I blog.
(To that friend- If I ever do whine about not getting many views in the future, please remind me of this post.)